Lynne DeVane was returning several more empty moving boxes from her
new apartment to the hallway when she heard a loud crash and thud, followed
by some very creative, vivid language. Whoa. She'd been a lot of places
with a lot of jaded people but she'd never heard that particular combination
of words before.
She dropped the boxes she was carrying and rushed through her open
door into the hallway of the lovely old brick building in Gettysburg,
Pennsylvania, where she'd just rented an apartment. Boxes were scattered
everywhere around a man--a large man--she noted, who was just
rising to his feet and dusting off his dark suit pants. A golden retriever
stood close by, nosing at the man with apparent concern.
"Oh, Lord, I'm so sorry," she began.
"You should be." The man cut her off midsentence, his blue
eyes on his dog rather than her. "The hallways aren't a repository
for trash."
She was so stunned by his curt response that she
didn't know what to say next. And before the right words came to her,
the man groped for the frame of the open doorway directly opposite
hers. "Feather,
come." He didn't look back, but as she watched him fumble for a
second with the doorknob, she felt concern rise.
"Hey, wait! Are you all right? Did you hit
your head?"
Slowly, he turned to face her as the dog disappeared
inside his home. "No,
I did not hit my head. I banged the hell out of my knee and scraped my
palm, but you don't have to worry about being sued."
"I--that wasn't it." She was taken aback by his abrupt manner. "You
just looked as if you might be dizzy or disoriented and I was concerned."
"I'm fine." Now his voice sounded slightly
weary.
"Thank you for your concern."
He turned and found the doorknob again. But as he turned the knob and
carefully moved forward, a realization struck her.
Her new neighbor was blind. Or, at the very least, significantly visually
impaired.
The man vanished inside and the door closed with a definite clunk.
Well, cuss. That was hardly the way to get off on the right foot with
your closest neighbor. She began to drag the offending boxes down the
back stairs to the trash receptacles at the rear of the building, where
she'd seen a cardboard recycling container. If she'd had any idea her
neighbor couldn't see, she'd never have left boxes lying around in the
hallway.
Even through her lingering chagrin, she remembered that he was extremely
attractive, with dark, curly hair, a rough-hewn face with a square jaw
and a deep cleft in his chin. The dog clearly had been anxious, and she
wondered if it was a guide dog. But if it was, why hadn't it been guiding
him? And if it wasn't, wouldn't he have been using a cane? Maybe she'd
been wrong and he wasn't blind at all, just clumsy.
It didn't really matter. She owed him an apology. With cookies, she
decided. Very few men could stay mad in the face of her grandmother's
chocolate peanut-butter cookies, a family recipe bestowed on Lynne the
day she graduated from high school. Neither of them could have guessed
that it would be almost ten years before Lynne was able to eat those
cookies again.
She hiked back up from the cardboard container and returned to her
floor for a second trip. Maybe her neighbor would come out and she'd
get another chance to apologize. But the door opposite hers was closed
and it appeared that it was going to stay that way.
After the fourth trip she took a break and hung her grandmother's large
mahogany-framed mirror above the sideboard in her dining area. She caught
sight of her reflection as she stood back to admire it, and was momentarily
taken aback by the stranger in the mirror.
The woman she saw was a slender, washed-out blonde with her hair twisted
up in a messy knot. The woman she still subconsciously expected to see
had a headful of layered, permed coppery hair and she was thin. Not just
slender but really, really skinny. And she wouldn't be wearing ratty
old jeans and a T-shirt. Instead she'd be in something unique from a
top designer's fall collection.
More than a year had passed since she'd walked away from a major modeling
career. Her timing was professional suicide. Even if she ever wanted
to go back, she'd burned all her bridges completely. She'd just finished
her first Sports Illustrated swimsuit edition when she'd made
the decision. The only place to go from there had been up, but she'd
opted out.
"But why?" her agent, Edwin, had asked in frustration. "You're
the hottest thing since Elle MacPherson, honey.Your name could be bigger
than anybody out there. Just think of it." He'd sketched a mock
billboard in the air. "A'Lynne. Just a single name. The face of...Clinique,
or Victoria's Secret, something major like that. How can you even consider
quitting?"
"I'm not happy, Ed," she'd said quietly.
And she wasn't. She was tired of hopping flights to God-knew-where
for photo shoots in freezing-cold surf. She was tired of having to
monitor every tiny bite she put in her mouth so that she didn't gain
weight. She was sick of the casual hooking up and the partying that
went on at so many of the functions she was required to attend.
But when one of the producers of the SI shoot
had looked at her critically and said, "Girlie, you could stand to lose at least
five pounds," something inside her had snapped. Enough was enough.
She was already too thin for her almost six feet of height. And she wasn't
even sure she remembered her real hair color. Like most of her co-workers,
she sported a distinctive hairstyle and color as part of her public persona.
Unlike many of them, though, she had yet to resort to bulimic strategies,
binging and purging, to lose the necessary weight. Was she anorexic?
She didn't think so. If she weren't modeling, she was pretty sure she
wouldn't feel compelled to eat so very little.
But she wanted to find out. "You might not be happy," Ed
said, "but you're famous. And damned well paid. Who needs happiness
when you're a millionaire?"
The thought that she might one day become that cynical
was the scariest one of all. "I don't want to live like this anymore." Her voice
grew stronger. "I won't live like this anymore. No more
jobs. I'll finish what I'm contracted for, but then I'm done."
"But what in hell will you do?" Ed had
asked, utterly perplexed. In his world, life was all about fame and
wealth.
"Be happy," she'd said simply. "Be
an everyday, ordinary person with everyday ordinary concerns and schedules.
Eat what I like. Do volunteer work, go to church. Be someone who matters
because of the good I do in the world, not someone who only matters
because of how good the weirdest designs on the planet look on my body."
Yes, she'd definitely burned her bridges. She'd dropped the odd A that
her mother had thought looked so sophisticated in front of plain old
Lynne, and she'd begun using her real last name rather than her father's
mother's maiden name. A'Lynne Frasier was dead, but Lynne DeVane was
alive and well.
She'd moved back home to Virginia with her mother, gained back enough
weight that she no longer looked as if she'd stepped out of a concentration
camp and let her heavy mane of hair begin to grow back long and straight,
although she wore it up and out of her face much of the time. With no
makeup, her normal blond coloring made her forgettable enough that she'd
managed, so far, to avoid recognition and the media harassment it would
inevitably bring.
After a year, though, her sanity had demanded she find her own place
to live. She'd decided on Gettysburg, just over an hour from her sister's
home.
With luck, tucked away in a small town in the mountains of Pennsylvania,
she would stay forgettable.
She crossed her fingers as she carried out yet another load of cardboard
and stomped it flat before depositing it in the recycling container.
If she didn't run into any hard-core SI fans, she thought she
had a chance.
She was getting winded after the seventh trip so
she walked around to the front and lowered herself to the front steps
for a few minutes to enjoy the small-town atmosphere of her new home.
Holy cow. She'd thought she was in decent shape, but those stairs seemed
to be getting steeper with each climb. Lowering herself to the top
step on the small brick porch outside the entryway, she took a couple
of deep breaths. Under her breath she muttered, "Are those boxes
cloning themselves? Surely I don't have that much junk."
"Am I going to fall over you or your stuff again?" Startled
by the deep voice, she whirled around. Her grumpy neighbor had just opened
the entrance door. His left hand was gripping the handle of a leather
harness now, but the dog in the harness wasn't the golden one she'd seen
earlier. This dog was big and black and distinctly bulkier. The leather-covered
metal handle, along with a leash attached to the dog's collar, was firmly
gripped in his left hand. She'd been right when she'd suspected he was
blind.
Jumping to her feet, she opened her mouth to apologize again. And then
she noticed he was smiling. Belatedly she realized his tone hadn't been
angry, but rather wryly amused.
"Sorry," she said. "Just taking a
breather. Those stairs are starting to make me wish I'd added a few
more miles to my morning run."
He chuckled. "Good thing it's not a high-rise." She groaned. "Perish
the thought. But if there was, there would be an elevator." She
took a deep breath. "I really am sorry about the boxes earlier.
I guess you noticed I moved them."
"I did." He smiled again, strong white
teeth flashing, and she was mildly shocked by her instant reaction
to the impish, bad-boy quality in the expression. It invited her to
smile along with him, to share some unspoken joke. It also made him
one of the sexiest men she'd ever met. And it was a heck of a contrast
to his earlier behavior.
"I'm sorry, too," he said. "I'm usually
not such a bad-tempered jerk. And I know better than to leave the apartment
without my trusty eyes."
"Apology accepted..."